Monday, December 14, 2009


man..

everytime he sings, it just makes me feel so energised.

everytime he smiles, i know he's all alright now.

awww~~ :D

hehehe..

`more heaven than the heart could hold. 9:41 PM

Thursday, November 05, 2009





Oh what can i say?!




I m 21 !!




A whole new world, a whole new responsiblity.




mum & dad has been such cutie pies with all that cheezy wishes, blessings and thank u s.




the big contridictions of u r still a baby and the "I dont know, u're 21 already. U make ur own decisions" kept coming out from their mouths.




haha..truly my darlings~ :)




I m glad.




Dad has been lecturing the same old stuffs yet ending his speeches with all that cute stuffs.




I still act like i dont care though.




But he still continued on.




because he knows his silly girl is listening to him though she is doing all that oh my god acts.




hahaha...




No doubts, my daddy!! :)




Of course, mum has been pretty sweet too.




ahh~~ that's because I have been confessing lots of cheezy stuffs to her.




The old saying goes " Every little girl is their daddy's lover".




Hmm..i think i m taking on the role of "boyfriend" to my mum too.




Haiz~~ hehehe.... :P








what's with my sudden outpour of cheezy stuff??!!






end of story.






my 21st birthday has been simply sweet. :D




had a beautiful cake handmade by my darlings.




sweet at heart and in my mouth too.




hahaha~~




we had a great time of sharing too.




man..it was my most honest time with these darlings ever.




but i love it!!




straightforward is my best way of communicating.




shall receive my 3rd birthday cake for this year tomorrow.




and Lord, i pray for another sweet and meaningful time tomorrow. :D





`more heaven than the heart could hold. 11:50 PM

Wednesday, August 12, 2009


Happened to look through some photos of my ex classmates's gathering and i realised how not close i am with them.

In fact, I think I never am close to anyone. :)

i dont know why too.

but somehow, i have this weird way of making friends then not getting close to them.

is it just myself? or does someone does it too?

i dont know why, but i dont like the idea of hanging out with friends.

not that i think that they are not worthy of my time or so.

but it's just that whenever i am out with friends, i feel like being alone.

i have this thinking that no one understands me even if i share.

probably that's why i dont like hanging out with friends.

haha...

wellza, i m just a totally weird person. what to do.

guess i just have to be myself and pray hard. :)

`more heaven than the heart could hold. 2:17 PM


Wee~~goo~~weee~~gooo~~~

Wanted to upload some pics together with this post but,

wellzaa..

My silly com is having some annoying virus crap again.

so, my card reader cant open up my files in the microcard,

which therefore disallowed me to retrieve my pics,

which then therefore cause me not to be able to post up the pics!!

야!!!~~~~

annoying~~~


hmm..i think i'll just have to wait till my phone comes back.

Then i can just simply plug it in and get those pics.



Handphone~~please come back soon~~~ :'(


hahaha...okie dokie..i needa go to sleep now. had been having slight headache the whole day. must be because i m exhausted. :9

wellza..gooda nighta~~~ :)

`more heaven than the heart could hold. 2:55 AM

Saturday, August 08, 2009


Again~and~again~and~again~and~again..

lalalalala~~~~

2am (which coincidentally is the name of the other sub group, kekekeke~~) in the morning, with 2PM 's Again and Again and a nice cup of hot tea.

Here I am again, grooving and sharing my day...

First up!!

Yea Yea Yea~~i have been totally enjoying my time now in school. Like really, totally!!

indeed the saying goes, "What's better than doing something that you would enjoy and have passion in it.". :)

Surely, it feels great to be doing soemthing that you are passionate about.


[ Big Bang's Haru Haru (Acoustic version) is distracting me now. :P ahh..i cant wait for 18/8 to come~~ ㅋ..ㅋ.. ]

Hmm..today i finally saw the situation for myself.

:(

why did things ever end up this way??

haiz..

[extract from I Don't Care by 2NE1]

" cause I don't care e e e e e e

cause I don't care e e e e e e

cause I don't care e e e e e e

cause I don't care e e e e e e

Boy I don't care. "



yea. That's probably the best way to deal with this. :)

Last song before I sleep, Big Bang's 거짓말. ㅋㅋ.. what a song to end the day. :)


`more heaven than the heart could hold. 2:03 AM

Monday, July 27, 2009


Didnt know what to write about..

Not interested to share my feelings..

Not interested think about how should i say it..

However I chanced upon this blog entry

and somehow the words juz start to flow in me.


21 years of forced laughters.

21 years of almost dried up tears.

My heart has already gone numb,

and I am no longer interested in trying to feel the feelings anymore.


Finally I feel like escaping.

To not think about it anymore.

To not want to be loved anymore.


Finally it seems so real.

It seems so true.

Can I let go now?

Can I not stay anymore?



The last straw had been drawn.



People around me start to ask me why.

Ask me what happened.


All I can answer is

I dont know.


I dont feel depressed.

I dont feel stressed up.

i dont feel sad.

I dont feel hurt.



i just feel numb.

So please dont ask.




21 years of distrust.

21 years of feeling rejected.

of feeling different.


How should I say?


hmm..

i guess i m really tired of these feelings already.

i hate these feelings.


i cant cry.

because i should not.


what should i do?


is being honest wrong?

is speaking up my mind,

wrong?


Why am i being treated differently?

is being different wrong?


Why do you not believe me?

Why do you never ever believe me?


I cant stay anymore...



Sometimes i feel like everyone looks happier and more at ease without me.



Am i thinking too much again?



But isnt that your request?

Isnt that your prayer?

Isnt that what you wish for everyday from the minute you are awake?


That i am gone.

That i am gone forever so that things will be easier and happier for you.


I wish that I am gone too.


So that i will be able to see the smile on your faces again.


So that i can hear the sigh of relieve from all of you.


So that i dont have to see your crying and disappointed faces anymore.



Everyday as I grow, your faces of disappointment haunts me even more...



"Please love me".

"Please smile for me".

"Please be proud of me".

"Please believe in me".

Are the words that i can never tell you.


Whe will i ever be up to your standard?



Ha.

Accidentally clicked into a very funny video.

But I dont dare to smile,

as i am afraid that these feelings will be gone.

That I will not feel real anymore.

How silly can i be. Haha..



FT Island's "Please don't love".

Hearing it over and over again,

90% of the lyrics speaks to me..

hahaha..weird..


I wish i can hear him live.




A phrase that i chanced upon.

"Tough stuff, sad stuff, depressing stuff, painful stuff, stuff that hurt you..

Although life is full of sadness.. Always put on a smile ^-^ "





What can i do anymore.

`more heaven than the heart could hold. 8:07 PM

Tuesday, June 09, 2009


Singapore Idol madness..... :)

We survived the first 3 days of the Singapore Idol's audition slam!!! Congrats... :)

though we didnt get to hit our target but it was still an experience.

it was not as busy as the Open House too..

but it was juz as tiring.

Everyone was pretty stressed up those few days.

I exploded.

gave a big shock to my fellow partners.

but everything was alright after a while. :)

next week will be part 2 of the show and we all hope that we will get to see a better crowd and enjoy ourselves more.

Go Go Go!!!

`more heaven than the heart could hold. 1:55 AM

Friday, June 05, 2009



Woah!! there is a possiblity that 4 of my beloved partners that gt transferred out the other time will be transferred back again...Yippee!!! :)


but now my store manager is on the line of being transferred out.. :'( haiz..now i can only pray that things go on well..
today is the start of the Singapore Idol..Let's prepare to die..(as "encouraged" by my store manager) hehehe..
oh wells, i hope for the few days, we will all be able to enjoy ourselves and let's fight all out to show the rest of the stores how united and strong we are.. :)
Go Go Everybody.. :)

`more heaven than the heart could hold. 2:42 PM

The Girl :D

Valerie Vee :D
29.10.1988
child of God

A simple girl in a big world
finding for her true self
learning to live life to the fullest.

Music. It is a part of my life.
Can't live without it.
miss my beloved french horn.

The stage of my life.
my biggest dream.



muackk it !




thoughts.

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- Carpenters


Melodious

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wishinq list

 * to be able to continue walking closely with God

* to be creating & enjoy the wonderful music again

* put a smile on everyone's faces especially my loved ones

* to be able to find my true self soon

* to be able to stand on that stage someday

* to be able to travel all over the world

* to be able to be there to see the snow every winter


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ben
casilin
denise(ah du)
guo qiang
joan
joanne
kai zhun(kranji sec)
keith
kimberley
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manfred
samuel
sher & fel
simin
suetying
sihan
steven junior
uncle timothy
uncle anthony
uncle ee jay
uncle nicodemus
venelyn
warren
xinyi
yimei
yiwen
yingxin
yongjun
raymond
Tribe
YCYPAO tribe
NBSS Band group
Wanderingscribe


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